damn, i can't go swimming today cause ian's working.
anyway, i've stepped into my second day of hardcore mugggingg!
erm, that is from night to sunrise.
don't seem like i've accomplished much these two days.
too much misconceptions and doubts to clear.
yes, i'm feeling the insurmountable pressure on me given that its only 168 more days to freedom.

this is going to be the worst holiday in my entire life.
haven't been hanging out much.
and my schedule next week are FULLY occupied.
third week have to be reserved for hardcore mugging cause mid-years is in the fourth week.
sad life, don't you agree?

it never fails to hit me when i think about what i'm going to achieve at the end of this two years.
am i going to be wiser given the predicament i'm in?
am i going to be more selfish and individualistic?
am i going to be someone who is developed holistically?
am i going to be one who is a scum to the society being just book-smart but not street-smart?
actually, i believe jc education is like a revelation of the many personalities in the society.
isn't teenagehood a phase in life where you're becoming more matured and at the same time, expressing yourself in a tad of childish manner?
right, that's when we reveal the inner-most characteristics inside us, compared to an adult who is just displaying a different facade to the people around him.
i've never fail to realise how this can affect you in many ways and especially in such a competitive environment.
for me, compromising is not an option; its either full acceptance or full rejection.
a cliche quote goes, 'no one is perfect in the world', so we should TRY and accept others' flaws.
but, i'm here to say that perfection is in the eye of the beholder.
well, maybe mine expectation is much higher.